I'm beginning to wrap things up here on Blogit. I'm preparing to join the rank and file who have left this... busy and preoccupying forum. I haven't been around much in the last year since returning to the US. I'm working full-time, going through a divorce, and am now a single mom. Weeks go by before I think about this place, and it's begun to harbor a sense of obligation... "Oh, dear. Haven't been by Blogit for a while. Maybe I should drop in and say hello. I should write.
What have I to write about?"
Been too busy to be introspective and philosophical about more than my husband's derangement.
And now, Christmas is coming, and the New Year. I need to start cleaning things up a bit.
After much deliberation, Blogit is going to go. I've been copying and deleting my entries, one by one. Blogit had served its purpose during my lonely last year in Germany, during my final year of hausfraudom, when i had the leisure to think and mull while chopping onions and staring through a haze of tears out the kitchen window, or while mopping the floors and wondering if I had enough time to jot down an idea or two before I had to pick up my son from Kindergarten, or before my husband came home from work and freaked out if he saw me at the computer...
Back when i had time and energy to consider the importance and interrelatedness of things--and write about them.
Now, my head is full of work, and overtime, and ex-husbandry, and custody, and my son's well-being... What have I to write about when not even a half-assed poem can be pulled from my tortured heart?
Those of you who are left, I'll miss you. And I'll say a final goodbye before I go...
