Saturday, April 21, 2007

It's done. I did it.

A week ago, I left my husband. Just packed up my son and our clothes and left.

Of course, i had already filed for divorce some weeks previously, and the papers were served the day I left.

It's nice being gone, but struggling with sometimes-overwhelming guilt.

But I'm glad it's done. Finally.

Now I can breathe easy.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Who I was in a past life???

I came across a website that, based on your birthday, gives an "analysis" of one of your past lives. Of course, it's all in good fun and can't be taken seriously. I was tickled by the one my birthday generated. Check it out...

Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Tibet around the year 850. Your profession was that of a seaman, cook or carpenter.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Bohemian personality, mysterious, highly gifted, capable to understand ancient books. With a magician's abilities, you could have been a servant of dark forces.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
The timid, lonely and self-confident people are everywhere, and your task is to overcome these tendencies in yourself and then to help other people.

Do you remember now?

Well, no, I can't say that I do. But I like the idea of being a scholar of the mysteries. If only uncovering one's past lives were so simple...

Find out what yours says at the link below!
http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife/

Monday, April 2, 2007

Things I will do when I'm single again...

1. I will read, study, write, watch, listen to, buy and do anything I want, anytime I want, and leave it all out in the open and not hide it for fear of recrimination or fear of having it thrown away, or having to answer for myself to an ignorant clod of a human for a husband who has no tolerance for the parts of me that make me different from him. Including my gender. In short, I will be 100 percent MYSELF.

2. I will leave the bed unmade. Always. Except for when I'm expecting company.

3. I will no longer fear that, when the telephone rings, the person on the other end might be my mother-in-law.

4. On weekdays, I will leave the breakfast dishes in the sink until after I get home and dinner has been eaten.

5. I will burn incense and leave fragrant candles and sachets all over the place, and I won't have to smell the stink of metabolized alcohol anymore.

6. I'll go to bed any damn time I want and not have to wait until hubby leaves for work late at night so I can chain the door at his insistence (even tho I've told him that one good kick by anyone who wants to get in would rip the chain right out of the jamb, which makes it pretty much useless).

7. And on that note, I will chain the door during the day if I feel like it, even tho he won't let me chain the door when he's home. (figure that one out)

8. I will sleep with the windows open.

9. I will sleep with my bedroom door closed.

10. I will live in peace in my own home.

11. I will be MYSELF.