still alive, still raking through the muck. still wondering in which direction i should point my shoes next... which is right, which is true, or can i do it all?
in this time that i should be making concrete decisions and moving forward, i feel oddly unmotivated and even reluctant.
follow my heart, you say? sure... but my heart hasn't led me to happy, productive places... except maybe when i auditioned for the ren faire 14 years ago.
not a very good track record.
i seriously doubt my heart can be trusted... or my decision-making skills.
which is right?
which is true?
stay or go?
wait or move on?
search or learn?
none or all?
what do i do???
